Making a Plan

​I think the beaming light of awesome that comes from good test results will be something that may take awhile to wear off.  Fine by me!  Still telling close friends about what’s going on - the list is getting shorter and shorter and it’s definitely easier to talk about it now.  I think my appetite is coming back a little and I’m tired, which means I’ll hopefully get a good night’s sleep tonight.  I’ve got a bunch of appointments this week and new doctors to meet.  So far so good!

I told my boss over a long lunch today and then she came with me to talk with our HR department. They were both extremely supportive and made me feel like there would be nothing I need to worry about on the work front.  I’m hoping I don’t have to take too much of my saved up vacation for this; I’d much rather use the time for other things! 

Late this afternoon Jason and I met with a plastic surgeon to discuss reconstruction options.  I’ll do implants in 4-5 months which means that during this first surgery, I’ll have tissue expanders put in to make room for them.  They’ll sit behind the muscles in my breasts and every week I’ll go in and they’ll inject saline until they’re at a size big enough to accommodate the implants.  Sounds like it’ll be a little uncomfortable for a few days while the skin/muscles adjust but I’m guessing that after going through the first surgery I should be able to handle it. 

This is what the expander looks like. 
The circle is magnetic and is where they'll use a needle to inject saline each week.

Hoping to get a better idea on a surgery date tomorrow - today at the meeting we discussed what I’ll need to do for the prep and it made it all very real!  It’s scary to think about, especially since I know I’ll have pain to manage, but I wish I could just go in and get it over with!  Waiting is the worst part!